Mencari Jalan Pintas

Entah karena saya yang bodoh atau mempercayai teori yang bodoh, saya percaya ada beberapa hal yang tidak dapat dilalui dengan jalan pintas. Ada banyak orang yang ingin menjadi jagoan di satu bidang tetapi tidak mau memberikan waktu – dan tentunya atensi – untuk menekuni bidang tersebut. Mereka mencari jalan pintas.
Meskipun saya melihat ini dominan di Indonesia, tapi saya yakin ini bukan monopoli orang Indonesia. Lihat saja ada banyak buku “how-to” yang durasi waktunya sangat singkat. “How to program this and that in 21 days or less”. Bagaimana bisa? Menjadi jagoan skateboard dalam waktu 3 hari.
Di bidang pendidikan, saya melihat mahasiswa sedang belajar menulis. Kebanyakan tidak percaya. Mereka yakin bahwa menulis tugas akhir, atau thesis, atau disertasi, dapat dilakukan dalam waktu sekejap. Bagaimana mungkin? Apabila mereka tidak melatih menulis, bagaimana mereka dapat membuat tulisan yang baik? Ah, saya tahu. Mereka hanya ingin lulus saja. Tulisan secukupnya saja. Asal bisa melalui syarat administratif kelulusan saja.
Okelah. Mungkin mereka ada benarnya. Namun kemudian ide yang sama diterapkan di semua hal yang mereka lalui. Asal saja. Tapi mereka ingin mendapatkan hasil – baik itu berupa finasial atau ketenaran, fame and fortune – yang bukan asal-asalan. Bagaimana mungkin?
Saya, bodohnya, masih percaya bahwa untuk menguasai sesuatu secara mahir dibutuhkan 10.000 jam atau 10 tahun – atau ekivalennya. Nah …  Eh, tapi saya tidak sendirian.

"Everything happens for a reason."

It's been my favorite line for ages. Yes, there must a reason behind everything that happened in our life. No matter how hard it is, remember that there must be something good behind every conditions. I've been talking about the same thing recently, right? There are also some reasons, which I don't know how to tell. Hard time probably. I had some problems with no clue at all. I had been thinking for a long time but until now I still have no idea if I did something wrong or what. But finally I realized that there's only one way out. To accept is the only key. Accept that now everything isn't more than a beautiful memories. Accept that some people aren't meant to be together. Accept that you both are walking on different path. Accept that people might not love you the way you love them.

You can erase people from your life but memories still there. People come and go but their footsteps stay still. I'm not trying to forget the memories, cause I know it's useless. Even if I can, I wouldn't. Some people made me happy once. They were involved in God's way to create who I am. Experience is the best teacher.  And here I am, very happy, standing with a very neutral heart. I have reached the step which I feel nothing. I'm just trying to be what I used to be before. Every girl is precious. You just need the right eyes which would see you lovingly and feel lucky to have you every time he looks at you. Enchanted.

It has been a tough months. I received my mid term report last Saturday and it was pretty good. I'm going to work harder for my next report. It means may be I can't write new post so often for these 2 months. I want my parents to be proud of me. And I know God wouldn't let me down. I'm gonna win this game. Have a nice day :)

The Masquerade

Mask is not flat
It is well-shaped
It can laugh
It smiles and cries

Mask is a layer
Further and further
Taking us from the core

Mask is one’s heart
Only one who feels the pulse
And a few who hear the beat

Mask is an illusion
To be white when it is black
To be black when it is white
To deceive

Mask has two holes
For us to see
At the mirror
We are all wearing it

Asa Sepi

Laksana halilintar gegar menggelegar
merongrong guruh jiwaku yang runtuh
Terdampar lelah terkapar
Tersungkur tidur membujur 
gerah pun…Tak kuasa aku berulah
Dimaki…Tak mampu Kembali mencaci…

Hanya diam dalam kelam…
Sendiri merajut sepi
Merobek jala hati…
Membakar panas kobar jiwa…
Tersenyum…membalut kalut yang terangkum
Tertawa…Meringkus rakus luka yang menganga…
Berdoa...membawa lara kepada asa..

Bell Hooks, All About Love

“To return to love, to get the love we always wanted but never had, to have the love we want but are not prepared to give, we seek romantic relationships. We believe these relationships, more than any other, will rescue and redeem us. True love does have the power to redeem but only if we are ready for redemption. Love saves us only if we want to be saved.” 

“Contrary to what we may have been taught to think, unnecessary and unchosen suffering wounds us but need not scar us for life. It does mark us. What we allow the mark of our suffering to become is in our own hands.”

“the wounded child inside many males is a boy who, when he first spoke his truths, was silenced by paternal sadism, by a patriarchal world that did not want him to claim his true feelings. The wounded child inside many females is a girl who was taught from early childhood that she must become something other than herself, deny her true feelings, in order to attract and please others. When men and women punish each other for truth telling, we reinforce the notion that lies are better. To be loving we willingly hear the other’s truth, and most important, we affirm the value of truth telling. Lies may make people feel better, but they do not help them to know love.” 

“Our hearts connect with lots of folks in a lifetime but most of us will go to our graves with no experience of true love.”

“If you do not know what you feel, then it is difficult to choose love; it is better to fall. Then you do not have to be responsible for your actions.” 

“When angels speak of love they tell us it is only by loving that we enter an earthly paradise. They tell us paradise is our home and love our true destiny.” 

Melihat Dengan Memejamkan Mata

Sinar, bawa serta kabar ini bersama, angin. Sampaikan pada dunia bahwa cinta itu ada. Beberapa waktu yang lalu telah mereka gapai. Sang rumput penasaran “Siapa mereka??” Sang nurani menjawab “mereka yang bisa melihat!” “Mereka yang tidak buta!” bunga-bunga bertanya “dimana menemukan mereka??” sang kalbu menjawab “mereka ada di mana-mana!” daun-daun bingung “bagaimana menemui mereka??” sang hati menjawab, “kita hanya perlu melihat??” semuanya semakin penasaran rumput, bunga-bunga dan daun-daun “lalu bagaimana, caranya melihat???” kemudian hening, senyap, sepi sembilu…   tiba saat sang matahari menjawab kita semua hanya perlu memejamkan mata… mengatur nafas-nafas keceriaan dalam tubuh, dalam kesadaran…

Lagu Cinta Untuk Ibu

Dalam balutan kelemahan.
engkau tetap pancarkan berjuta harapan.
tersenyum penuh arti dalam sebuah ketulusan.
ketika kekecewaan datang.
engkau ajarkan arti sebuah keikhlasan.
ketika kesakitan itu pun datang.
kaulah yg temaniku hingga datangnya kesembuhan.

Aku tak tahu apa jadinya aku tanpamu.
tak mengerti bagaimana aku hidup jika tanpa kasih sayangmu.
aku tak habis pikir bila aku tak dilahirkan dari rahimmu.

Ibu...
ijinkanlah aku bernyanyi untukmu.
bernyanyi sebuah lagu cinta yg tak akan pernah bosan terucap.
lagu cinta yg tak akan hilang termakan zaman.
lagu cinta yg ingatkan kita tentang mimpi dan harapan.

Ibu...
tetap ijinkanlah aku bernyanyi.
menyanyikan senandung rindu ini.
rindu yg tak akan pernah hilang dan pergi.
senandung kata cinta nan sederhana.
lagu cinta untuk ibu.